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New York City….hhhmmm pretty soon I am going to bounce right back into country life

 I have come across some folks that play games have not been honest and I have come across some folks with a heart of gold  I have come across twisted souls that are projecting some sort of hatred on others for they never learned to really love themselves and I have come across those that know the truth is to live by the word of the holy higher spirit…tell the truth 

 I think most people deserve the good honest truth Anyways..one person told me a huge lie and than some other folks came out of nowhere that were involved in the lie and blaming me and I am like Damb I am just a sister from the country trying to do some projects here in NYC and get the f out when its over..This ain’t even my hometown…Now I know why one stays to themselves

woke up early to a text stating “you have been chosen for a lead part..check your email to pick time for audition”… Jesus I am  tired and I am getting no real love back….last week off broadway audition and Hershey kisses commericial This week about to teach art therapy and attended a Hip Hop Book release party…did not know a soul there but it was cool… in the back of my mind i wanted to run into the arms of a King that had some truth for me or run back to nature where i do not see hungry faces for attention and sex… no People attacking without even really knowing you… seems like sacredness runs straight into the gutter in NYC cause a soul or two is too lost to even claim it or give it …anyways i continue to stay here and teach and do my art and use all those years of education to keep me afloat in todays failing economy and embrace the blessings that are coming my way ..treating people with respect honor and being as honest as possible while keeping my work on the pulse of humanity…

Tonight I also light a candle for my very very good friend.. .she told me she has cancer and please god let her be ok for her soul is a blessing to many and she has given many folks hope and encouragement through her work and deeds…please watch over her she is truly a good woman she is truly a good soul..please…

1 Corinthians 13:1-13

If I speak in the tongues of men and angels,
but have not love,
I have become sounding brass or a tinkling symbol. 

And if I have prophecy and know all mysteries and all knowledge,
and if I have all faith so as to remove mountains,
but have not love, I am nothing. 

And if I dole out all my goods, and
if I deliver my body that I may boast
but have not love, nothing I am profited.

Love is long suffering, 
love is kind,
it is not jealous, 
love does not boast,
it is not inflated.

It is not discourteous,
it is not selfish,
it is not irritable,
it does not enumerate the evil.
It does not rejoice over the wrong, but rejoices in the truth 
 

It covers all things,
it has faith for all things,
it hopes in all things,
it endures in all things.

Love never falls in ruins;
but whether prophecies, they will be abolished; or
tongues, they will cease; or
knowledge, it will be superseded.

For we know in part and we prophecy in part.

But when the perfect comes, the imperfect will be superseded.  

When I was an infant,
I spoke as an infant,
I reckoned as an infant;

when I became [an adult],
I abolished the things of the infant. 

For now we see through a mirror in an enigma, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know as also I was fully known. 

But now remains
 faith, hope, love,

these three;

but the greatest of these is love.

I read those words the other day and had to remember to hold on to my own faith when the world looks dismal and people are afraid to tell the truth and embrace love for love is the devine embracing you back ..sometimes i feel like a newborn in a world of lonely crying weeping souls that walk the earth in search of what… they do not know for they are lost in a cage where the devil feeds us with over processed ideas of conformity and teaches how to cringe and hide our souls when the word love is upon us There will come a day when the ones that do not love themselves will reach into their hearts and find nothing but a cold empty wind  that will lead them to their own deaths death of the spirit for the spirit needs love and not love that is forced or contrived or spoon fed but something natural like the sweet kiss of hope running through your veins so very very warm like being reborn again love is like a punch at the party that gets you so drunk you better find the designated driver ..your partner and say look whatever this is has me so scared but please take my hand and guide me and tell me that all will be ok for my heart actually feels like its going to explode with Joy and I think this is the very first time I have felt this exact way naked and vulnerable… others have tried to leave a hole  others have not honored what i have given them in spirit and flesh but thrown it away like last nights left overs and you…will you make sure that I arrive home in the arms of a king without a scratch and lay me down softly so that when i wake I am looking into the eyes of  my reflection …a soldier a mighty warrior a trusted lover and friend who  whispers to me its alright now baby lets keep climbing lets keep flying but for now rest…I am here and I Love u and I…..will always….love…..YOU

Everything is in divine order ….today was smooth I am not in NY but closer to nature and the voice of the higher spirit runs deeper and stronger throughout my whole being i have been meeting folks I am supposed to meet with same vision and same dedication to healing themselves and using their gifts as tools for Divine healing of the masses I had a meeting with a very nice woman and kindred spirit outside of NY and felt that the move towards creating that space for me and a space to bring more hope into the eyes of children is not far off…somewhere here are more teachers for my own spiritual growth

we live in a place where love is becoming abnormal and love and lust overrides family principals.. still there will always be angels around us to help keep the light in our hearts

funny how people have been trying to come back into my life but few do not know what is sacred..they throw what is sacred away and out the window..who knows why and frankly I dont care but one thing I do know is that alot of folks do not know who they are in a world of cookie cutters..all they know is they gots to be at the bar on friday and up in the club… leaving no real legacy behind for their children or mankind…brainwashed I say…living in fear of their fullest potential as human beings on this earth and forgetting what we are truly here for….each other