Today was all about cleaning I have been so busy that cleaning was on the surface I used elbow grease today got down on my knees and even did a little bit of painting and plaster…maybe I should get a tool belt
I am not much on concrete and miss the country but I thought while I am here in NYC doing my music thang and teaching thang I might as well make my African Cacoon super duper fun I am going to be Jammin in my place once in a while…I really miss that..we start this week
I have also started my end of the year fast..sometimes you have those toxic moments emotionally and physically well today I had the emotional one..there is always something that pops up with fasting I sat down and took a deep breath and the tears started to fall..release..I was listening to native american music..and I thought about things I have overcome and the beauty that awaits me and then as I wiped my eyes my hands came together and I prayed and said Thank you and i asked for Love this year and I am so grateful for more work during these hard times especially in my field I am grateful that I am going to start recording I am so so grateful and I got up and started cleaning again
This morning I moved through the streets of Brooklyn with a speed like no other and a prayer in my heart I pray and chant when I run.. Sometimes I just meditate in movement I thought about my conversation last night with my friend that is a theologist..I asked a question about sin…their responce was “what is sin?”…I said Sin is when you cause harm or hurt to other people creating bad luck or bad Karma for you They said it was a great answer
I get so frustrated sometimes with the world and how people lie or try to hurt or use without even really looking at the ramifications of their actions and how could they really become better people in the world instead of as my students say a “waist of face”
I have always wondered what makes a person lie How does a man cheat on his partner how does a woman look to another man when she already has a man how does a person claim that they are making love when they are lieing and why doesn’t a man trust a woman that has never lied to him …anyways… on and on to the break of dawn..
it comes down to weakness the ones who need a constant feeling of attention.. could be a night of good unsafe sex makes them feel fufilled somehow could be the smile from a attractive woman or man.. that attention some cant find it from within so they need validation through others ..forgetting that our validation really comes from within and what kind of positive energy we put into the universe is what we get back and what negative things we bring forth shall return..I had to think who did I ever hurt and did I really …sincerely with all my heart correct that shit
Whats more important than anything is when someone brings a lie to your fabric of life remember you can still maintain your integrity and keep the faith and honor your principles .. there are souls out there that will not try to rape your way of living your beliefs in being with one man your choices to keep certain things sacred and clean and not dirty it with lust and lies …. Are people and their feelings dispensable and where did these people learn how to lie or love..hmmm maybe to them its the same thing
Me? I am ok still running the streets of New York with my Sheild and Spear chanting and praying like a warrior at every step.. I only live in Babylon but I am not of it I dont lie to my lover or a brother and I keep him honored at all times why? Dont all brothers deserve honesty and to be honored…we all deserve the truth for truth is love I come from the trees the water and the sky this concrete is hard on my soul but I will be dambed if I let those that only look to beauty and sex and are afraid to really love burn my dreams of foreverness I run and I train and I run with my ancestors whispering in my ear ” blessings are coming..”too many wounded empty and shallow spirits trying to fuck suck and duck whats real
Shit there are so many people out there that are “gaming” and truth is like something they wipe their asses with they either want to get in your pants or near your cirlce some folks use other souls to get from one destination to the next when they dont know its all about the hard work and your positive energy u put into the universe that moves us ahead..they forget about the spirit world whens it all around them showing them certain situations testing your strength your integrity but I am no angel myself but I really really try hard not to use people or be one that only comes from a place of hatred or lust
Wonder what the spirits will give you when you throw love away or abuse it
I heard the drums and remembered how to dance I danced from the front of the apartment to the end moving my hips… a fire is burning inside of me and it feels good Good spirits around me ancestral and new friends Damb life is hard but so sweet like gooshing sweet warm honey all for him now I grind and jump and move and stomp asking the ancestors to keep the wings under my feet cause i can smell you king …your hot strong chocolate..you are near and there will be no fire like ours when our twin flames meet..we will burn it down!!!! … until then this is all for you
I dance for you I undress for u I get dressed cause I gots shit to do today and I am runnin late…I am on fire and the light of love is in my heart.. I know you are a true love warrior like me
I had the deepest conversation with a friend last night about Beauty My friend is a theologist and straight up spiritual healer I was like wouldn’t beauty be a curse like I feel my inner beauty but fail to really see the beauty on the outside cause to me it does not mean anything in the spiritual world Most people relate on looks more than what they feel or how they feel..they like that “safe” and “sexual flesh” space without the deep spiritual connection
My friend said think of beauty as a “key” to access the higher realms of being a healer for your people…(my people those that refuse to wear the mask and run from love) beauty is what the higher power will give you to become even more of an advocate for the disadvantaged
This conversation warmed my heart and I felt some could REALLY see me
Then my friend said function with purpose and all the good yummy things you want a true king and partner and trust and love will come while you honor your gifts…your purpose is to share that gift
This mornin I woke up and a friend that I opened up for (singing that is) sent me a link to a magazine..the mag mentioned me and my voice Wow! I continue to thank the higher power for all blessings big and small and I honor love and truth for it is living in tune with the devine spirit and all…. is in devine order
Getting over a slight head cold from doing a 4 hour shoot It was fun and both the photographer and hair and makeup person are beautiful souls to work with. I hope we all have a chance to be on the same team and work together again
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The past few days were all about the music Great spirits good souls and I opened up for a new friend and great singer that is working with the Bob Marley Family I also saw Pete Seeger and Guy Davis perform this week…very nice
Its getting cold as hell too and I have no chocolate king to snuggle with…yet
