Woke up with sunshine in my heart …dancing and singing
last night was sweet jammin with new musicians and low and behold I run into two good familiar spirits makin moves and bringing good vibes in the music scene..keeps happening like this…. all in devine order
I want to thank all the folks that bring me such love and encouragement
Every human soul needs to be touched and held in a spiritual way and in a physical way. ..This is Love.. and this is how we came into the world Some run away from it some abuse it and some put it on “Pause” To become close and sincerely honest with another individual is a gift a gift overlooked by many and abused by many..makes one cautious in a world full of people trying to get over or get it on
The other day someone died and it was hard to hear and I was also holding on to stuff that I could not change Why would would I want to think for too long about things I can’t change I dont know maybe it is because I am writing more songs and surrounded by more beautiful truthful open souls The truth is sometimes ugly and sometimes it twinkles in your heart LOVE Hmm people function on fear or love or fear of love or love of love and its just crazy to me how when I look around and I see so many twisted souls on the “make”
I spoke to my family about the death and cried so hard I cried for the hatred I see I cried forthe poverty I cried for the beauty I cried because both of my parents were on the phone talking to me about the funeral and telling me they loved me I told them I was tired and ready to leave the concrete jungle for a bit and hug a tree and sit on a rock
My father said “ listen to me this is a very racist society and as a woman and a woman of color you are crossing barriers” .. keep it up Then my mother had her say ..” I am tired of you not giving yourself enough credit” she said Then they told me say hi to the cat he misses you I just cracked up so hard I told them I loved them so so much for they are truly my blessings we must not overlook our blessings for if we never tell that person that has encouraged us that have held us and touched us spiritually or physically …we would be so sad if and when the day comes that they are gone from our lives forever
Now a good friend told me while I was a visiting Prof at NYU…she thought I would do alot if I moved to NYC after my residency well I did ..and by the time the warm weather comes I can sit back and do a few things that I have always wanted to do knowing I put alot of good things into place…Go on long hikes and mountain biking camping..you name it…lay on the green grass and look at the stars at night and watch the firefly in the dark
I have been a Prof three times since NYU and interviewing in two weeks with a University out of the city Plus working with a headhunter out in Cali to place me out there b4 the new year
My friend is redoing my website and I just got a laptop so I can move around in the spring and summer to check out new homes I truly feel like a warrior but need to rest when i think of how hard it was for me to move into an environment that went against the grain of my nature loving self CONCRETE JUNGLE it was and is and now opening doors to go back to nature The city has taught me alot about people ..growing up in the stix have shielded me away from alot of this madness but I was digging the netwoking and building on my education my art and music If you can make it in NYC you can make it anywhere Still there are alot of vampires in the city making moves out of desperation for they have no way out spiritually and/or financially
In the mean time as a teacher and adjunct Prof I continue to tell my students to love each other even when there isn’t any love for this will help other people to grow that have so much anger or hatred inside and it will help them as students to be better people for it is actually healing and empowering to love when there is no love in return
The other day I met with an Indie label .. The brothers are together and its good to find like minded folks in this world Can’t wait to meet the musicians and get the band together
Still learning from my teacher from Paris… Guitar .. drums and vocal techniques
Now I feel like a big load has lifted and I want to sleep hard be alone and rest We dont do all this hard work just for ourselves at least I know I dont when I look across the faces of my highschool students and my college students and they see me.. a woman and a person of color.. they think..and I can see it in their eyes…HOPE.. I can do it too..she did
Thats what we are here for each other to create a spark of HOPE in another persons heart.. a light..pass it on… now with the music..these brothers get it…CHANGE.. ASK QUESTIONS and do not ever forget to show LOVE to those that are our blessings Each one of us makes a difference in the others life ..we must love and honor each other as we would ourselves for this is what being here is all about
I have also been having long and challenging spiritual conversations with a friend of mine that is a healer and spirit guide its been so amazing that I feel a part of myself growing..like I understand that this place is a battle field some will come with LOVE and some will come with FEAR but you have to know who you are and continue to remain the love warrior for you will see your comrades like these brothers from the label..Soldiers love warriors thought provokers and teachers will always come together for positive change and create awareness for many are “sleeping” and its time to wake them up!
To get the love we always wanted but never had, to have the love we want but are not prepared to give,we seek romantic relationships. We believe these relationships,more than any other,will rescue and redeem us. True love does have the power to redeem but only if we are ready for redemption
