Today i pulled out my latest music (that nobody has really heard) and started singing and dancing around My new stuff I recorded with a drummer so its hot sexy and hard That musical side of me I am opening up more The writing to me is waay better and deeper from within I can’t wait to Jam with my new musical soulmates
Today is also so yummy and relaxing doing laundry cooking with cumin and curry chopping onions and garlic and waiting for that call to figure out when I meet friends tonight for some sacred conversation and laughter
Its hot in NYC the flesh seekers and vampires roam the streets trying to feed off of their next victims They ache from loneliness and crave attention…Please look at me please notice me i have no soul and all I have is the flesh to offer I stop off at a juice bar and drink life as I remember the rain is coming I drink fast My phone rings..”what r u up to tonight?” Now i think what do I really want to do…chill with a whole lot of air conditioner and movies and food A room full of folks drinking and googling each other does not float my boat at all tonight matter of fact most times It does not make me happy Missed my uncles boat ride yesterday too tired but let the rain come tonight and get that shrimp fried rice and chill
Today I saw an Eagle. As my father said it is a very majestic bird and represents so many things in many different cultures. My father said that Bird may have presented itself to you for reasons soon to be known. My pops is very spiritual. That Eagle looked so beautiful sitting there by the River. Fearless and Regal
Last night I had to sleep with earplugs My parents were laughing and giggling to themselves I thought for one moment when one dies the other will have the hardest time My mother calls my father like 5 or 6 times a day they talk they giggle and when she comes home same thing hee hee ha ha like sometimes they are young lovers again sometimes I wish that love was just as pure for their own children but that story I am not ready to tell yet but soon They are each others best friend and its a shame that some men and women can’t open up enough to just be who they are to the other person i am not perfect in this matter but i am constantly in most situations I at least let the person know that this is where I am from and this is what I need to work on and if you are willing and ready then i am open to take a journey with you of friendship and love When you get older and notice how many folks are playing the musical soulmates just like musical chairs it gets so yucky to watch the fear take away the purity and love is no longer an option lust takes over like a new drug on the street He has a great body and looks like he can do his biz and she has great boobs and a behind and the heart and mind and spirit are no longer to be considered in the coming together of human beings and again I stress human beings One thing i do know is that i gravitate towards the fearless lovers the warriors the ones that want to experience the spiritual side of friendship and the spiritual side of love the others well they keep the devil in their beds everytime they play pretend This seperates the men from the boys and the women from the girls…knowing how to embrace commitment love and building … and when you get there (like my parents) you will be laughing and flirting and giggling all the way to senior citizen’s ville
Today my father and I headed over to a vegan spot and we both had a green juice.It was his first time and I got a kick out of watching him drink it. He asked me “Am I going to run as fast as you now Maluwa”. Then he jumped up and said “Wow! I can feel it working nah I am just kidding but I do need to go sit on the John.
I made it to my parents house I am tired still…from the video shoot An old friend of my parents that has known me since i was a 13 years old with ashy knees sends me out on auditions once in a while If I am not teaching or focusing on day job stuff (reality) I go from time to time The audtion was for a JZ video and I got the extra part i just was not aware that this was an all night shoot Woke up this morning feeling like I ran a marathon My body was all sore from banging these big steel pipes together like i was in a riot My eyes were burning from all the makeup I had on looking like a Cat I was an extra in the movie Departed a while ago I was not even in the movie (ended up on the editing floor) but the cool thing was I was on the set with Martin Sheen .. Mr Sheen was like “hey you where r your people from?!” He said I had a great face and we talked and he was very down to earth and cool
Anyways the JZ video turned out to be JZ…Kanye West and Rihanna video They took us all to some island outside of NYC When we got there we were all in a church dressed in black waiting to be called on to set I was going to meet a friend for dinner that night but had to call and cancel Someone told me it would be an all nighter Anyways finally after some food and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting..this nice guy working for JZ came and asked me if i wanted to see the set He walked me over and asked what agent I was with where i was from etc and then I came across two people that oiled my arms so I looked like i was sweating I had long black pants on and a black tight T and my face had to be covered below my mouth …Now being an artist painter photographer etc i was like kind of thinking how cool to be involved in a whole new creative process We all stood there some with pipes and some with torches The firemen stood by just in case something or someone caught on fire They also had explosives…. then Kanye West walks by and JZ and Rihanna I am like cool but never really very moved by celebs the assistant director comes up and says hi my name is… i say mine Now i was a bit uncomfortable with some of the attention at first but then i thought if they saw me without all this sh…on then i would be the reg me and i don’t know it was kind of weird at first but then as I told a friend of mine that attention does not really make my boat float Love and good solid friendships make my boat float and when people see you then they don’t really see you but they see the surface and the surface does not really really say who you are or reveal the content of your character So here i am banging these two pipes together to the sound of the music and remembering how my parents had me study theater for quite some time but i chose to make an exit and look at me now …still they both stressed education and a good solid job They did not have probs with me doing this extra gig now for they knew I had the education Anyways that shot was over and i took a chair and was about to take a snooze when this brother said YOU whats your name I told him and he said Kanye wants you in this scene and can you be in another video i was like well “I am hanging out with family for a bit soon but yeah” and gave him my info
Anyways it was fun i feel busted and now I am chillin with my pops talking about a book he and i want to do together We are about to go to the runners club store and i am going to get some new running shoes
i met some cool people on that shoot Some asked “do you do this all the time?” i was like “no I teach mostly” One younger brother said “you should do this more often …for real though…you could model” I have never really thought of it but enjoyed the creative process I myself think that life is a journey and we have to embrace situations that come our way…….. all situations…… have lessons
